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I jump off the back of the garbage truck and flip the first lid. Trash cans with wheels are the easiest.

I pull one toward the back of the truck and let the momentum lift the weight.

I bring down the side of the can on the lip of the hopper, and bags tumble into the stinking mess: coffee swirls with exploded ketchup packets and fetid leftovers.

If there is a bulk pick-up, Craig, the driver, will come out to help me, but I am usually alone. It’s just me and people’s trash.

One summer during college, I worked for my hometown’s road department as a garbage man.

I rode the back of the truck as the cool morning gave into the hot afternoon.

Our route was taped to the dashboard: a thousand-time photocopied map of side streets and cul-de-sacs.

We had to be finished by lunch.

A swift run meant that we had time for an omelette and toast at the Hanover Diner and some days a nap at a dead-end street.

I never could sleep for long. I was afraid that I would get caught.

The other guys, who knew better, said that nobody would care unless we missed a house.

We never did.

Some people lined thick rubber trash cans against the curb. Others slouched over-stuffed bags over the curb, their contents spilt during the night.

Bears loved to lap yogurt containers, and often left a trail of ruptured diapers and torn bags of fast food across dewy lawns.

Some people rushed down their driveway at the last minute, in robe and slippers, pushing one can in front and pulling one behind, as if a missed week of trash meant their home would be overwhelmed.

It might. We have to throw away most of our lives.

Shredded bank statements. Mildewed jeans kept in a humid attic. Black and white televisions, their rounded screens split with cracks. High school quizzes, saved for a nostalgia that evolves into clutter. Wool sweaters pocked with jagged tears.

Sooner or later, it all has to go.

A. R. Ammons once wrote, “garbage has to be the poem of our time because/ garbage is spiritual, believable enough/ to get our attention.”

Before becoming a garbage man, I never gave much thought to dragging trash cans to the end of the driveway.

I didn’t worry when I packed cans full of shredded grass spit from my father’s mower.

I didn’t realize those heavy lifts probably stressed or strained some backs.

We don’t understand most jobs, most lives until we inhabit them.

I was only thinking of getting rid of what was not needed. Trash cannot stay in a house. The new has to replace the old.

There is a rhythm to garbage.

There is only so much room—in our houses, in our hearts—and at some point, we have got to let go.

Unto dust we return our food, our pillows and sheets, our clothes, our mirrors, our carpets and rugs.

Our material comforts serve a purpose, and then they become worn and warped, and they need to be tossed.

There is a strangely silent communion between us on the truck and the people who often leave very personal things—reams of bank statements, old college love letters—bundled in the road at the end of their driveway.

It is an offering based on faith.

Every other week was bulk collection. People would put out old recliners and chipped bookcases. Sometimes we found Atari consoles, warped from the early morning rain, among the big items.

We knew that people drove pick-ups after dark the night before, looking for tossed treasures to sell and maybe sometimes to keep.

That refrain, the idea of garbage given new life, makes me think of our once-a-week trek to the county recycling centre. Continue reading

• Nick Ripatrazone Nick Ripatrazone has written for Rolling Stone, The Atlantic, The Paris Review and Esquire. His newest book is Ember Days, a collection of stories.

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