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I listen halfheartedly to the dinner conversation as I roll warm purple wax between my fingers. Every time another stream of wax bursts down the side of the candle I daintily scoop it up and let it slide down my finger, mesmerized by the sight.
“Stop playing with the wax!” says my mother, suddenly realizing what I was doing.
“Sorry mom,” I mumble. I avert my eyes but I leave my finger resting on the candle.
When I think of the Advent of my childhood, I think of melted wax rolling down my finger. The texture of red construction paper. The glimmer of the rhinestones that my siblings and I put on red paper hearts every time we did a kind deed. The smell of homemade flour ornaments that we put on our Jesse tree.
Advent seemed so much simpler in my childhood. I am lucky to have those memories. They help me to reorient myself every Advent. Every year, I try to reach back into the past and relive the slow fuzzy caterpillar slide of childhood; that time of life when counting seconds and minutes was unthinkable.
Advent is about slowing down because waiting always slows us down, whether we like it or not.
Every time I get in line in the cafeteria at our convent, I am inevitably behind the sister who leisurely picks out her meal items with the meticulous care of a surgeon removing a spleen. For an impatient person like me, every second spent staring at a sister using metal tongs to inspect her food is hellish.
Time is now too valuable to be wasted. Perhaps I am more aware of my mortality. The very essence of adulthood seems to be about living anxiously, if relatively unconsciously, in the yawning abyss of imminent death.
Adults realize that we just don’t have time to waste. Continue reading
- Sister Theresa Aletheia Noble, FSP, is the author of The Prodigal You Love: Inviting Loved Ones Back to the Church.
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